Of course now we are done with the move. I am here 2000 miles from where I started and I am happy. I am about 95% unpacked and have hit a stand still. Need more bookshelves. Need more closet space. Need to figure out how in the world I acquired so much stuff!
The Monster Princess is loving the change. She loves her daily walks and our trips to the park. She is exploring and learning so much and so fast! We are adjusting to our new environment and our new schedule, but things have definitely slowed down. We are very happy.
Now that you have had the readers digest condensed version of how things are now, here is the real reason for the post.
I have been told a multitude of times in my life that my purpose was to bring peace and to bring unity. Of course, me being who I am... I have to find my own meaning to this. I am not going to believe the words of another over my own path. I have been walking this path for well over 30 yrs now and have finally come to a point, where I "thought" I knew who I was. I say thought because over the last few days and even weeks, that has been changing. Last fall I accepted who I was and what my challenge was to be. The challenge I accepted was to enter the phase of my life bestowed upon me. I transitioned from Mother to Crone. Although I did not see myself as wise, I was told otherwise and told that this was the path I must walk. I must trust and believe in myself and share with others the wisdom they needed.
HOW DO YOU WALK THIS PATH? REALLY.
I honestly don't know how to walk this path so I continued being me and have tried to be there for those who ask for help. I am learning what to say and when to say it or when NOT to say it. I am learning to be careful with my words and the way they are used. I say I am learning because I am human and it is not something you can do once and then always get it right. It is something that you need to continually work to achieve.
When discussing my move here to the desert with one a very good friend of mine, I had made the statement that me, being a water soul and longing for and loving the desert had totally confounded my husband. My answer was, maybe growing up here and not being around water taught me the value and how to appreciate water. That good friend made a statement that was more profound to me than she could ever know. It resonated deeply enough that days later, I can still feel the vibration of it. She said simply, "Or maybe you will bring water to the desert."
Thinking about this I am thinking about how things are changing all around me. How can one person change the world? Be yourself and have the right friends. Truly, that is the answer.
Who would have thought that I would be friends with some very influential people? I never did. Who would have thought that I would be the hub in some of the greatest connections? I never did. Who would have thought that so many things would change for so many people just because I was involve. I certainly NEVER did! I am not saying any of this to "pat my own back" or to promote my influence at all. Instead I am saying this a bit in surprise myself.
I have connected people of different walks just by being friends with both. I have put certain people in touch with others just by being me.
I have become very good friends with a self proclaimed "Heretic Christian". He calls himself this because over the course of our friendship he has learned to be tolerant and understanding of a faith other than his own. He has learned that what makes you a good person is what you believe, but not in a religious sense. He has learned that "faith" is important, but that having said faith is more spiritual than religious. Over the course of our relationship he has begun to question the teachings of his own religion based solely on his own beliefs and what he beliefs to be just.
I have become very good friends with a woman whom I consider to be highly respected and well connected in the Pagan culture. I have looked up to her and respected her in an almost reverent nature. She is my mentor and I hope I can be as graceful and wise as she is. Imagine my surprise when she tells me that I am wise and that I am a blessing!
My nature is to doubt myself and not take the credit that is given. But when I stand back and I am honest with myself and my spirit, I see that I am these things they are saying about me. I am that one that can connect two faiths that fear each other. I am that one that is trying to make a difference in the world, even if only just in my corner.
Who knows, maybe by changing my corner, and each of the influential people I touch change what they call their corner, maybe this ONE person can make a difference. And maybe, just maybe.....
I will be the one to bring water to the desert!
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